Isolation

I have been isolating for the last few days, not so good. I have managed to get some of the house work done but have been unable to get myself to go outside. I have been feeling frightened to talk to anyone. I feel like all my words would come out wrong or jumbled and that no one would be able to understand me. So, I stay in my mind and talk to myself. I have been reading and journaling and writing to do lists. Money is really tight this month and will be for a while, I'm still paying for the move and My daughter is eating enough to fill up 5 kids! I have been tempted to go buy booze just to cope, but I know for sure that such and act would make it all worse and drag me down. None the less, coping with cravings is hard to do. Today I am going to get out and go shop for food with Tia. If I can do just one thing today, then I can find something pleasant to do that will help me to recover from going out of my my house. so ta ta for now boys and girls.